When I Look Back Over My Life…

Artist: Salvador Dali
Title: Person at the Window
Thelma, from Adventures in Proverbs 31 Mommyhood posted a similar post to this one. She wrote about what was going on in her life 10~20 and 30 years ago. She is challenging her readers to blog about what they were doing 10~20~30 years ago and so am I.

I decided to add 5 years ago as well since there wasn’t much going on for me 30 years ago. If you decide to join in just leave me a comment and I will read your blog once you post.

5 year ago– I have given my life to Christ and have belonged to him 2 years now. He has given me grace, mercy and forgiveness. On top of that he has given me a husband and more children. I am still learning to live a life that pleases God. I am fervently resisting being a stay at home mom. I fear having to live on one income. I fear having to depend on my husband. I fear not being an independent woman. But with much prayer and reassurance I finally trust God and my husband, and take the leap. And here I am today.

10 years ago– I had just been kicked out of college. I was a young unwed mother of a three year old. With no job and no skills I began to pray for a change to take place in my life. I had come to the end of myself and knew that I needed help. I had no religion, but I knew that there had to something or someone in control of it all. My prayer was to my deceased father and what I said was “Daddy, I am all alone here and I need help. Please, if there is a God ask Him to help me in a way that I will be able to see” Shortly following that day I joined the Army and my life hasn’t been the same since.

20 years ago– I was a carefree child who loved reading and art. On my next birthday my father would be murdered. And the following year my mother would lose custody of my brothers and me.

30 years ago– I was born the second child and only daughter to my mother and father.


  1. Country Girl At Heart says

    Thank you Isaiah and “anonymous” for you comments. It’s not easy looking back sometimes. But reading both your comments and post truly know that God is faithful.


  2. Anonymous says

    This is so frank & unembellished…I compliment you for that. Please do not be afraid of the feelings you have concerning your resistance to SAH motherhood. You seem to be on a good path now, & God will show you day by day that your decision is the right one.

    I don’t have a blog, so I guess I’ll leave my “timeline” here, if that’s OK. If not, then just delete.

    5 years ago- I am immersed in the daily routine of caring for my family. I am exhausted most days, & my husband & I do not see eye-to-eye on a good many financial matters.

    10 years ago- My father is diagnosed with cancer & dies in September. I don’t know how I would have made it through with out my husband’s support & clearheaded thinking. My children barely know their grandfather because of geography…after marriage, I was only able to see my parents once or twice a year.

    20 years ago- My husband & I have been married 2 years, & he is transferred to a different town. It took me a long time to “put down roots” in the new place. I couldn’t have known it then, but this move was necessary for all the growth that took place for my husband & me, as individuals as well as a couple. I begin the process of investigating our inablity to conceive a child.

    30 years ago- I graduate High School, & have no idea at all what I want to do with my life! I have a very nice boyfriend, a job, & lots of questions for God…about everything!!


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