I’ve heard this statement many, many times. I’ve read books, heard sermons, and read article after article. It’s somehow burned into my heart. The truth also ties into surrender and trust. In order for the truth to set you free, you must first trust God and then surrender whatever it is fully and completely. Have you ever experienced brokenheartedness? I have only twice in my life. It is in this deep place where you have to completely trust God. It goes bone deep, sometimes even soul wrenching deep. It is life changing.
About 5 years ago, I had an abortion. I can count on one hand, how many people I’ve told. I was a baby believer at the time and didn’t know enough about God to trust Him with the situation. The doctor told me that I needed to abort because I was probably going to miscarry anyway. And he said if I didn’t then the baby would probably have a lifetime illness. So, my husband and I made a decision to abort the baby. My soul was grieved. As, I look back today… I can only think of how it was such a selfish decision. If I only trusted God enough to take care of me, instead of me taking care of me. Truth, surrender and trust, those words echoing over and over again. I felt that I had crossed a line with God. How could He forgive me?
I found this scripture during this trial in my life.
13 “If I shut up heaven that there be no rain, or if I command the locusts to devour the land, or if I send pestilence among my people; 14 If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land. 2 Chronicles 7:13-14 (KJV)
I had to seek the Lord’s face. I had to humble myself and beg for forgiveness. It took me a total of 3 years to feel completely free. I believe my daughter is a sign of God’s forgiveness in my life. I also realized that Jesus bore my sin when He died on the cross. He loves me, cares for me, and He met me in my darkest hour. Jesus came to heal the brokenhearted. It was in this place of complete repentance that I felt the power and healing of Jesus. It is His truth that I believe. Nothing can separate His love for me. He pumped life back into my veins. He turned my mourning into dancing.
He can do the same for you. He can heal your broken heart. There is nothing in your life that is too big for God. Surrender whatever it is and His truth will set you free. God will do even more than forgive you. He will heal you and make you whole.
Out of these ashes
Beauty will rise,
And we will dance among the ruins.
We will see it with our own eyes.
Out of this darkness
New light will shine,
And we’ll know the joy that’s coming in the morning.
In the morning
Beauty will rise.
Steven Curtis Chapman
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