I just have to take a Praise pause here for God this morning. My devotions were about raising children and everything I read in the Deuteronomy 6:1-9 was right on point with how I raise my kids, so this mornings reading was a confirmation.
But what stood out to me was verses 10-12.
I have been feeling really down and without clarity lately simply because incident after incident has been coming up which I always take to mean 1 of 2 things:
1 – God is punishing me
2 – Satan is attacking me
Once I come to this conclusion I step back and evaluate myself to make sure that I have not strayed from God’s presence with some hidden or known sins in my life. Once I’ve investigated that avenue, I begin drawing even closer to God through prayer and devotions so that I am prepared to whether the storm if it is that I am being attacked.
Well this time…I could not figure out which was the case. We have been doing a great job of building up our 6-12 Emergency Fund but we have been hit with a $600 to $800 emergency just about every other month since about March. First the stove had to be replaced, then hot water heater within weeks of each other.
Next, we planned to purchase a washing machine because the one we have overfills and floods the downstairs if you don’t watch it and turn the water off. As we shopped around for washers, the dryer stopped working without warning.
So we paused on the search for a washer and bought a dryer. The dishwasher stopped working a year ago and we held off replacing it until the extra work of hand washing 3-5 times a day just began to stress me out, so my husband bought a new one.
Just when we think maybe the storm as passed the refrigerator started making an awful loud buzzing sound during mid October so we replaced it. Then another problem arose just last Friday.
I’ve already mentioned that our washer will not stopped filling with water unless we turn off the faucet behind the washer. Well, I turned on the water to do a load of laundry but get distracted and it was two hours before my husband went downstairs to find a water soaked lower level. Uggh!!
It was a mess. It was so bad and started to smell awful by Saturday so he ended up pulling up the carpet this weekend. To replace the floors, it will take at least $600. So now we have concrete exposed floors and no baseboard molding just a few weeks before Thanksgiving.
The last incident also took place this weekend while my husband and sons pulled up carpet. After running errand with my daughter our truck would decided it doesn’t want to crank up. There goes another $700 for a new fuel pump.
At this point I’m adding up and stringing together all of the past months incidents in to one ongoing event thinking God is punishing us for something.
It was not until this morning that I realized God may not be punishing us for something but preparing us for something.
Even with all of the issues that have come up we have still been able to meet every one of our financial goals. We’ve not stopped tithing, adding to our emergency fund or paying extra on our mortgage.
My husband has even left his part time job now that our only debt is the mortgage. A few years ago…if even one of these events took place something would have had to been put on hold.
My mind is conditioned to focus on the negative in situations but this morning I was able to see how God is working even when we are not aware. Yes everything seems to be breaking down back to back, but my husband has just about replaced all of my appliances with no stress on our finances. While I was stressing over the amount spent I was not appreciating what God has been doing for me.
For example, my mother came by two weekends ago to stay with the kids for a few days while Mr. Proverbs Wife and I went to Philadelphia and the first thing she said when she came upstairs she said, “Wow, you guys upgraded all of your kitchen appliances. It looks good”.
It was 4 a.m. and I was rushing out the door to leave for Philly, but I stopped and looked around my kitchen and thought wow, it does look good. It actually looks like a whole new kitchen.
I did not have time to let it sink in them but it is sinking in now. Good is setting us up to fulfill his promise in our lives.
11For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
Jeremiah 29:11 King James Version (KJV)
And he is doing it just as He said he would.
“And it shall be, when the LORD thy God shall have brought thee into the land which he sware unto thy fathers, to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob, to give thee great and goodly cities, which thou buildedst not,
And houses full of all good things, which thou filledst not, and wells digged, which thou diggedst not, vineyards and olive trees, which thou plantedst not; when thou shalt have eaten and be full;
Deuteronomy 6:10-11 King James Version (KJV)
So instead of counting up the cost this morning and worrying about what’s next…I am going to take a step back and appreciate the plans of the Lord. I’m going to look at what the Lord is doing in my life and find the goodness in it.
How about you?
If you are like me and often find yourself worrying instead of appreciating what God is doing in your life, let me know. Leave me a comment and I’d love to add your name and situation to my prayer journal.
*I am a busy wife, mommy and blogger. Therefore this post is unedited and may include grammatical errors but know that it is from my heart. The purpose iof my writing s not to gain perfection but to reach your heart and touch your situation. I hope these words bless you today.