This year is winding down and I’ve taken an inventory of my life and for the most part I’m content where I am. In the grand scheme of things, I’m on track in my marriage, parenting, finances and my faith.
I’m not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but when I look at my life through the Holy Scripture, I can see where I’ve grown and where I still have some growing to do.
One of the areas where I feel like I’ve been stagnant has been in my writing on this blog. I love writing and sharing things with you all, but honestly it freaks me out sometimes. I’m a big time introvert. So many people who know me offline say they can’t believe it. I am able to do things that extroverts do, but I’m usually either scared, anxious or stressed inside. The reason I still do the things that scare me is because in my life I’ve always experienced more of God when I’ve pushed my self out of my comfort zone.
The same is true with this blog. I know people who know me, read my blog and I get anxious that they’ll begin to expect me to be perfect and never mess up, when I mess up all of the time. I get angry, frustrated, stubborn, and everything else you can think of just like every one else. But then I repent and ask God to transform me, renew me and help me to be victorious over my sins.
I’m just writing this to remind myself really that it’s okay to fall short of peoples expectations. I’m also writing to tell you that I will fall short of your expectations. I will let you down. I will fail in my marriage, finances, faith and role as a parent sometimes, but don’t follow my failures, follow my victories in Christ Jesus. When I share stuff with you guys I strive to share my struggles and my victories, but I want you to know that none of us are perfect. While we follow women of God who we’ve certified as disciples, lets always remember that they aren’t Jesus. There is only one who is perfect. Only one who can save. Everyone else, including me, no matter how holy they appear, are only Christ followers and not Christ the Savior.
So now that my coffee has gotten cold, I’m going to reheat it and share some of my goals with you.
I need to step up my game in several areas and I’m going to use my blog as a sounding board to track my goals and progress. This is how I have grown in my faith and personal life since the beginning. Setting goals, making a plan and working on them. If you need some guidance on how to set measurable goals and actually reach them, just let me know in the comments. I’d also love for you to share one goal you would like to accomplish by the end of 2015.
Bible Study: Journal I Peter 1-5. I love my Bible Study time at night, but often get distracted for hours on social media. I love Bible Study and enjoy social media, but I realize that I don’t skip social media as much as I do my evening Bible study. Social media is an important part of my other blogs business model, but time spend studying the Bible is the foundation of my life.
Character: I’m working on grace. It’s an ongoing thing for me. I’m no longer who I used to be in terms of being someone who’s easily angered, but I do tend to hold grudges. Not with my husband and kids, but with friends or family who may have hurt me. I really want to be able to forgive people and still maintain a relationship with them. My natural instinct is to cut off communication with people who have offended me, but it’s not Christlike and although some may say, we’re justified in doing this, I don’t think it’s a good witness especially if I our goal is to win people to Christ.
Germaine: Be in the moment with him when we’re together.
Germaine Jr.: Take him to take his learners permit test.
Anniyah: Work with her to bring up her grades.
Juwan: Spend some mother son time with him.
Menu Planning: I have been slacking in this area because I just been unmotivated. I know I share recipes every week on Aprons And Stilletos, but I eat more of a vegetarian diet, my husband eats a high protein diet and my kids eat whatever I cook. Over the years I’ve always just ate and cooked what my family liked, but since adding my dietary likes to the mix, the menu and shopping feels overwhelming. This week I’m going to come up with a meal plan that can accommodate all of our needs, but not feel like a burden. (pray for me)
Finances: We are doing so good here. We give, save, pay bills and spend. I am so proud of us. We facilitated our first Financial Peace University and complete baby step 3 by December. This week my goal is to get our Emergency Fund account funded to 80%. God has blessed me with an abundant amount of work on my other blog Aprons And Stilletos and you guys have been amazing supportive of my devotionals and ebooks. That’s been a tremendous financial blessing. I love hearing how the book has helped so many of you.